Life is just way too hard, theres no way I can endure this until a natural death

[qualityOV3Rquantity]

My family is babysitting 2 kids of family friends and one got into a bunch of medication and had to go to the hospital. Luckily he'll be okay, but now I'm stuck at home taking care of the other child, and I can't fucking handle it. She's touching everything, she's screaming, and my chronic illness is flaring up and it feels like I'm burning inside but I can't fucking even lay down.

This is supposed to be the goal? This is life, having kids? I just can't fucking do this. Life. It hurts so much just to breathe, just to exist and think. It hurts so much. I want peace, I want to not need to worry about other people or my health or my future, or my fucking bullshit job, I just want to disappear...

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

The fact that you still have the will to watch the other child despite your illness tells me you're a very caring person. A common trait of people waiting at the bus stop. People will only appreciate how much we cared after we're gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wanting to disappear, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in this painful existence, it personally terrifies me how a human can suffer in this existence for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel. But anyway I wish you the best.