life is a terrible condition

[Darkover]

being alive is a terrible condition all the stuff we have to do to stay alive like breathing eating sleeping drinking showering cleaning working pooping weeing sex shelter heat, if we don't do these thing we suffer for it, that means by just being alive we are suffering and there's nothing we can do about it but go along with it, life is awful by default it's ordinary and mundane and routine, i can't wait to escape this dreadful machine i am, i hope i never have to exist ever again in any shape or form

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah- I know what you mean- a lot of the time I berate my body for being so needy- like a whiny infant. Like- what do you want now? A drink? The toilet? You're hungry? You're horny? You're smelly? You're in pain? Weirdly- I don't berate my mind though- yet that's probably the more difficult thing to satisfy.

We're weird creatures though I think. Like- do we NEED things to be difficult to feel satisfied by them? Especially intellectual things. Not in terms of basic survival of course- if those needs aren't met- that really isn't a 'nice' challenge to have. Still- it intrigues me... Like- have you ever played computer games that have varying levels of difficulty settings? Sometimes- it no longer becomes 'fun' when everything is available and everything is easy. Like we're wired to need the challenge- but- then of course- that's another 'need' in itself! Maybe we 'need' never to be satisfied too- 'The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence' type of thing. I agree- it's just a whole long cycle of having needs and not being quite able to satisfy them.

 

[Darkover]

Yeah- I know what you mean- a lot of the time I berate my body for being so needy- like a whiny infant. Like- what do you want now? A drink? The toilet? You're hungry? You're horny? You're smelly? You're in pain? Weirdly- I don't berate my mind though- yet that's probably the more difficult thing to satisfy.

We're weird creatures though I think. Like- do we NEED things to be difficult to feel satisfied by them? Especially intellectual things. Not in terms of basic survival of course- if those needs aren't met- that really isn't a 'nice' challenge to have. Still- it intrigues me... Like- have you ever played computer games that have varying levels of difficulty settings? Sometimes- it no longer becomes 'fun' when everything is available and everything is easy. Like we're wired to need the challenge- but- then of course- that's another 'need' in itself! Maybe we 'need' never to be satisfied too- 'The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence' type of thing. I agree- it's just a whole long cycle of having needs and not being quite able to satisfy them.

I don't believe going through difficulty makes life worth living, on the contrary, it makes it harder.
A life is worth living when the person living it deems it worthy, i don't consider humans intelligent enough for my liking
i'd like to have super intelligent to make life easier as life exists now it isn't worth coming alive for

let me put it this way if you was give the choice of being a millioner or poor what would you choose in life

 

[Forever Sleep]

I don't believe going through difficulty makes life worth living, on the contrary, it makes it harder.
A life is worth living when the person living it deems it worthy, i don't consider humans intelligent enough for my liking
i'd like to have super intelligent to make life easier as life exists now it isn't worth coming alive for

let me put it this way if you was give the choice of being a millioner or poor what would you choose in life
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Absolutely- I agree. But I'd also point to the fact that millionaires kill themselves. I don't always know why. MAYBE because their lives had less challenge. Maybe because earning things makes them more rewarding/ meaningful. I don't know. I agree though- balance is the important thing. Money would help me for now- yes. It's unlikely to 'save' me indefinitely.

I agree with you though- I think the human design has SO many things in it that make it incredibly hard to be happy. That said- I'm through with life full stop. I don't want a different life, I don't want a better one. I don't want a digital one! If you do and you hope for reincarnation- I hope you get your wish.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence certainly is terrible, that is undeniable. To exist means to be a slave, we are slaves to our suffering, our needs and desires all while slowly decaying from age in a world where there is unlimited potential to be tortured. I think that wanting to escape from all this is just having awareness that existence is nothing more than an unnecessary harm and a futile burden, I very strongly believe that we just cease existing after this where everything will finally be forgotten about for all eternity.