Yeah I agree, life generally sucks and I'd personally think of life as an empty canvas with no meaning and the events in there either bring pleasure or suffering. Most of the events are of course copes from suffering, then a lot of it is suffering and numbness with some sparse pleasures. Everyone is different in how they cope and interpret such events, some people are more resilient than others, therefore, what may break someone may not break another, and vice versa. Generally, you could say I'm a nihilist if you simplify it far enough.