Venting Letting the last hope go

[losttagain]

i am at the end of my line. All I need is to somehow let the last bit of hope and interest in me go to prepare everything and kill myself. How do I stop distracting myself, delaying and hoping and daydreaming and cling to life? I know I want to die. I am so full of anger and despair. I just need one last push to fully encourage myself. Can someone help me? Even just to chat about eachtohers plans. It would be nice to make a friend here and encourage each other. Thank you