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Releasefrompressure
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- Apr 29, 2022
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100% dying tonight just after midnight. No doubt in my mind. Already told my wife who will be along side me.
Going to be drinking Nembual. Worried a bit about the pain after drinking it as my stomach is bit bad but I'm going for it anyway.
Not sure i will document it unless there is great desire for this as there are videos already with dignitas.
11 hours left to go. :)
Main fear is of 'nothingness' after death but I am confident that won't be the case.
I am not sure I am ready mentally but I am going through with it either way, my feeling is there is going to be no perfect time to die and always there will be issues so gotta get on with it.
Si is a real thing by the way but even in hopeless situations it comes. You have to fight against it with will power and almost desire to die otherwise you will fail.
You can put off ctb for a lifetime with excuses but there will never be a 'good time' to do it. So you have to make it work no matter how much your brain fights against you with si.
You will spend a lifetime waiting for the 'right moment' otherwise.
Going to be drinking Nembual. Worried a bit about the pain after drinking it as my stomach is bit bad but I'm going for it anyway.
Not sure i will document it unless there is great desire for this as there are videos already with dignitas.
11 hours left to go. :)
Main fear is of 'nothingness' after death but I am confident that won't be the case.
I am not sure I am ready mentally but I am going through with it either way, my feeling is there is going to be no perfect time to die and always there will be issues so gotta get on with it.
Si is a real thing by the way but even in hopeless situations it comes. You have to fight against it with will power and almost desire to die otherwise you will fail.
You can put off ctb for a lifetime with excuses but there will never be a 'good time' to do it. So you have to make it work no matter how much your brain fights against you with si.
You will spend a lifetime waiting for the 'right moment' otherwise.
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