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Markyv
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- Jul 8, 2019
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Long time watcher, first time poster.
In the last 9 weeks my life has been turned upside down. My wife of 15 years and best friend for 22 years has gone from needing space because i was too needy, caused by depression, to full put divorce and war over our girls who I've looked after whilst she climbed the corperate ladder.
My depression had been partly caused by her, trying to support her whilst I held down a full time teaching job. So i checked out by pension and life insurance, they would both payout on death, and i sourced sn and the various drugs to help.
So i dissolved the sn into some water, phoned her and drank as much as i could. She phoned an ambulance, and then everything goes blurry. I found out i was close, 63% of my haemoglobin were converted, 70% is fatal. The antidote is methylene blue, which made my piss and puke blue. 2 days in hospital in high dependency and i can say no damage done.
I still am depressed but somehow life is going to go on. It made me realise its a bit like when you leave a job, you think the world is going to stop if you go, but it won't, the world is going to keep turning.
I'm going to get better, i am going to be stronger, because f*** it, i've got another swing at life and i am going to take it.
In the last 9 weeks my life has been turned upside down. My wife of 15 years and best friend for 22 years has gone from needing space because i was too needy, caused by depression, to full put divorce and war over our girls who I've looked after whilst she climbed the corperate ladder.
My depression had been partly caused by her, trying to support her whilst I held down a full time teaching job. So i checked out by pension and life insurance, they would both payout on death, and i sourced sn and the various drugs to help.
So i dissolved the sn into some water, phoned her and drank as much as i could. She phoned an ambulance, and then everything goes blurry. I found out i was close, 63% of my haemoglobin were converted, 70% is fatal. The antidote is methylene blue, which made my piss and puke blue. 2 days in hospital in high dependency and i can say no damage done.
I still am depressed but somehow life is going to go on. It made me realise its a bit like when you leave a job, you think the world is going to stop if you go, but it won't, the world is going to keep turning.
I'm going to get better, i am going to be stronger, because f*** it, i've got another swing at life and i am going to take it.