magicgranola
Member
- Oct 1, 2024
- 12
Think I'm going to CTB today. It's Sunday for me in hawaii. Just felt like doing it today after waking up. I've been considering it since around 2019-2020. My method is SN. I'm going to take a double dose of painkillers. I also have some weed to help with the anxiety since I don't have meto. There is a bathroom in the house that my family barely uses. I'm going to do it in there because for some reason I find it a peaceful place. It's also where my uncle overdosed in. It's very quiet and relaxing. My dad started putting potted plants everywhere in the house so I think I'm going to also take some of them and place them in the bathroom with me. Being surrounded by a lot of plants helps make me feel relaxed too. My dad and uncle were always into growing. I would have gone to a forest to ctb but I'd rather do that with someone else because I feel a little unsafe going alone in the woods. Doing this in the bathroom with lots of plants around me is the next best thing. I know that may sound pathetic or sad to some people but to me it's comforting. This is probably my last post. I just joined this website a few weeks ago but the people I have met here have been supportive and helpful. I wish that everyone finds peace in their lives and if they choose to leave this world that they find peace as well. Thank you and take care.
-magicgranola / sickflowers(on discord)
-magicgranola / sickflowers(on discord)