Last Few Steps

[Fulminare]

Welp, seems like things are coming to an end.
Had my last meal yesterday and been cleaning up my room the past few hours. Being active definitely helps with the hunger.

Will probably watch a few movies after a long and hot shower. Any must sees you guys can recommend? Also, would anyone be interested in listening to how I feel in the last moments? I don't know if it would help anyone, but I've been filming the past few days leading up to this. It might give people some insight and reassurance. I don't know.

Anyway, I can't wait to go! It's been a very freeing process so far.

Edit: I will not be doing it tonight. 28th is the set date and I'll publish my regime twenty four hours later :)

 

[Dubito]

Wish you a smooth journey! We will miss you!

 

[Roseate]

Welp, seems like things are coming to an end.
Had my last meal yesterday and been cleaning up my room the past few hours. Being active definitely helps with the hunger.

Will probably watch a few movies after a long and hot shower. Any must sees you guys can recommend? Also, would anyone be interested in listening to how I feel in the last moments? I don't know if it would help anyone, but I've been filming the past few days leading up to this. It might give people some insight and reassurance. I don't know.

Anyway, I can't wait to go! It's been a very freeing process so far.

Edit: I will not be doing it tonight. 28th is the set date and I'll publish my regime twenty four hours later :)

Yeah I'd be interested in listening

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel so relieved at the thought of leaving this world. I wish you the best of luck.

 

[Archness]

My best regards.

 

[Fulminare]

Thank you guys. It means a lot to have people support me.

 

[Shivali]

May you find what you are looking for

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I hope all goes as you have planned for yourself and you can get to the peace you deserve.

 

[Fulminare]

Welp, I have to go to the forest in a few minutes. I'll quickly schedule a post with more info, but this will be my last message on here for now. I hope it will work well. Thank you so SO much for supporting me. I wish you all well. See you on the other side. xxx

 

[Huntfish34]

I wish you Nothing but the best, thoughts and prayers always. Godspeed. ♥

 

[Fulminare]

The cops were called on me because a friend for some goddamn reason was worried about me. i can't believe this just happened. I had to throw away ALL of my SN because I was paranoid. Now my way out is gone. And so is my method.

 

[yeksovaz]

The cops were called on me because a friend for some goddamn reason was worried about me. i can't believe this just happened. I had to throw away ALL of my SN because I was paranoid. Now my way out is gone. And so is my method.

You're going to hate me for this but maybe, just maybe it's a sign? I'm sending love your way.

 

[Fulminare]

You're going to hate me for this but maybe, just maybe it's a sign? I'm sending love your way.

A sign of what? I feel so horrible this happened. My friend called me weak for even considering this option. Now I'm sitting at the psych ward, hoping they'll let me go.

 

[yeksovaz]

Fuck man I don't know, I just do not want you to die. You can always plan to ctb again, I'm just glad you have a bit more time now.
And I promise you, you are not weak, I am new to this forum and you all sound insanely brave to me. I really hope they let you go too.
I'm sorry if I'm saying all the wrong things, I don't know you but I care about you

 

[Pentobarbital_Plz]

Fuck man…why do people have to act all righteous and tough and get involved?? You're not weak for considering putting your OWN BODY to rest.

 

[Fulminare]

Fuck man…why do people have to act all righteous and tough and get involved?? You're not weak for considering putting your OWN BODY to rest.

I do not understand it either. I wish he would've left me alone. My lips still taste like SN. I don't know what to do anymore.

 

[Dubito]

Sry from me, too.
So you already had taken the sn?

 

[Fulminare]

Sry from me, too.
So you already had taken the sn?

Yeah. Well, not all of it. I took a sip and then I got a call. I picked up and I thought it was a prank call at first because the lady sounded super unprofessional. They pressured me to tell them where I'm right now and that the police are on their way. I panicked. I didn't want to be rescued. I wish that one sip would've done it but it didn't.

 

[jessisme]

If you didn't want to be rescued you shouldn't have told them
where you were.

 

[Fulminare]

If you didn't want to be rescued you shouldn't have told them
where you were.

They already knew where I was, just not the exact coordinates. It was a huge forest. Reading things like these hurts.

 

[Dubito]

If you didn't want to be rescued you shouldn't have told them
where you were.

I would have reacted the same way. You don't want to be found almost dead with brain injury or something like that. And when suddenly the police is calling you cannot think clear anymore.

 

[Readytogo246]

Bummer! I'm so sorry that happened for you. I hope you get out and can try again if and or when you are ready.