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DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Elementalist
Feb 9, 2025
831
I feel like nothing really brings me any pleasure. Nothing can fill that void in my soul. I try to do comfort eating, but it doesnt bring me pleasure any longer. Only emotions I can experience are pain and anxiety.
 
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dontwakemeup

Paragon
Nov 11, 2024
910
I feel the same. I use to fill the void with comfort eating but I don't seem to enjoy food anymore. I just sleep my days away. Soon as I wake up, I pop a sleeping pill. I have money, but don't enjoy shopping anymore. I have a lot of "stuff" that I haven't even opened. I'll just be happy when this life is over. I'm sorry you're having a hard 😔. Maybe try what I do. Until that works watch a movie.
 
29Forever

29Forever

Ffs am I still here
Feb 20, 2025
53
With you on that one. I've been struggling for years but in the last 8 months or so nothing brings me joy, it's rough.
 
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Halfhourdays

Halfhourdays

"Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt."
Mar 14, 2025
621
I've got really bad anhedonia as well. Especially food/drinking/drugs/sex.

There's no pleasure in anything.
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

Illuminated
Aug 27, 2018
3,069
Wish I could enjoy comfort eating but I am allergic to all foods so although the food tastes amazing I feel horrible after eating.
 
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ma0

ma0

How did I get here?
Dec 20, 2024
667
Exactly the same, the closest things to "pleasure" for me are short, temporary, unsatisfying dopamine bursts. It's been years since I last felt truly accomplished.
 
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anhedonic_moron

anhedonic_moron

weather outside is delightful
Mar 20, 2025
75
the sad part is knowing the feeling before, knowing the feeling of pleasure that is satisfying feels so alien right now, am also in the same position as you. everyday feeling nothing but flesh and blood
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Paragon
Mar 15, 2025
971
same. Except for eating. I hate eating and I think it's gross.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,970
I understand as for me existing is only suffering, I also find it painful to exist, I'm always so tired of suffering, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence, I personally always find it torturous to exist. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
JesiBel

JesiBel

protoTYPE:cclxxv
Dec 5, 2024
1,112
I filled the void in me by collecting things (mechanical pencils, music CDs, watches...) Now I don't care... I have no desire for new things. It felt like an adventure, searching, completing collections, and sorting everything.

I'm just living the day, doing my routine. I don't have any dreams because I can't see the future.
 

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