InigoDeux40
Under The Killing Moon
- Jun 16, 2024
- 14
Recently, my only remaining friend approached me with an idea to enroll together in an online course to work in call centers, with the intention of saving money, purchasing household items, and eventually moving in together to archieve independence. While the proposal seemed practical, well searched and my friend is genuinely nice, introverted and the contrary of clingy, I couldn't bring myself to commit to such a goal. Truth be told, I lack any real ambitions or passions, and I'm surprisingly content with that. I'm not aspiring to make a significant breakthrough in my life. When I had previous jobs I would simply spend my earnings on food without a second thoug. There was a time when another ex-friend would constantly pester me about buying myself a new phone, but my disinterest in making any effort made me find him annoying even though he was not doing anything wrong. I have no desire to commit to anything or anyone, set goals, or dream big. Currently, my sole focus revolves around purchasing materials like paint and stuff for a journal I am creating. Curiously, this is the only thing that holds my interest and keeps me from exit life. I couldn't care less about what's happening in college or any other aspect of life. The only motivation I have to make an effort and keep going is that darn journal.
This is just a vent, something I wanted to talk about for a while. I'm not looking for advice or anything like that, I know it sound concerning but I truly give a damn about life right now.
This is just a vent, something I wanted to talk about for a while. I'm not looking for advice or anything like that, I know it sound concerning but I truly give a damn about life right now.