Ketamine did nothing for me, want to ctb tonight, concerns

[kkatt]

I just got a ketamine infusion done today. It did absolutely nothing and if anything worsened my mood. Now I really feel I need to ctb. I just feel so bad for my mom. Especially because she'll have to find my body. I want to do it tonight. The last time I ate was 6 pm, so I need to fast for 8 hours, right? So the earliest I can take it is 2 am, right?
Also, do you think it's safe to do it in the middle of the night when my parents are in the house? My mom is a light sleeper. Is it likely that I'll vom? If so, she'll probably wake up and hear me. I need to know how likely it is that I'll vom if I take a stat dose of meto 40 minutes before the N. I have everything I need. I just feel so bad for my mom that she'll have to find me. I went to the grocery and bought bread for toast that I'll take a few minutes before the meto and also some chocolate and alcohol for after the N. This may be it, guys...should I be concerned if I ctb with my mom right down the hall?

Did you buy liquid or powder Ketamine?
All powdered Ket is a complete waste of money. It starts losing potency as soon as it cools. Only buy liquid ket and cook what you intend to use

 

[JSauter]

If your main reason for ctb is low mood I'd encourage you to wait until you've had a few more doses, if you can. I've self-medicated with ketamine but followed the same regime, and I think it was only the 2nd or 3rd dose which really helped my mood. In fact, it was fantastic. Gave me a whole new perspective on things. Just my 2 cents.

How'd you get ahold of it? Darknet?

 

[blahblah]

How'd you get ahold of it? Darknet?

Yeah. Not a chance in hell of me getting it legally lol

 

[Throwawaysoul]

How'd you get ahold of it? Darknet?

I bought a gram off the darknet. I "k holed" but it didn't give me any long term relief.

 

[blahblah]

I think the therapeutic dosage is 0.5 - 1mg per kg bodyweight. It's not enough to k-hole. I just felt a bit off balance and my skin/body felt a bit numb. I put on uplifting music- animal collective, to be precise, and listened to it with winamp visualisations. The first dose or two, not much happened- I was taking it weekly. But then, the next time, it was different. Somehow all my problems seemed fixable. I felt excited about things again, enthusiastic... it's hard to explain, but I felt quite normal. The general lift in mood seemed to last for a few days afterwards.

 

[Polka]

so you would have to take it 3 times a week to feel normal? what about tolerance?

 

[blahblah]

I think it's given weekly. Thats how I was taking it too. Which means no tolerance, no addiction.

 

[Polka]

The general lift in mood seemed to last for a few days afterwards.

Ok but do you feel depressed for the other 5 days before the next refill?

 

[blahblah]

Not so badly, though I wouldn't say I was completely not depressed, either. I was able to go out into the world and do what I needed to do. Feel some positive emotions and had motivation. As opposed to being severely depressed and pretty much stuck in bed. So yeah, there was a definite improvement.

 

[Polka]

Thanks. Good to know. Once a week treatment is very manageable.

For the hardcore mentalists beds on wheels with attached ketamine main line could be a game changer.That way they could make it to the shops and take the dogs out for a walk.

 

[*KNAZ*]

I just got a ketamine infusion done today. It did absolutely nothing and if anything worsened my mood. Now I really feel I need to ctb. I just feel so bad for my mom. Especially because she'll have to find my body. I want to do it tonight. The last time I ate was 6 pm, so I need to fast for 8 hours, right? So the earliest I can take it is 2 am, right?
Also, do you think it's safe to do it in the middle of the night when my parents are in the house? My mom is a light sleeper. Is it likely that I'll vom? If so, she'll probably wake up and hear me. I need to know how likely it is that I'll vom if I take a stat dose of meto 40 minutes before the N. I have everything I need. I just feel so bad for my mom that she'll have to find me. I went to the grocery and bought bread for toast that I'll take a few minutes before the meto and also some chocolate and alcohol for after the N. This may be it, guys...should I be concerned if I ctb with my mom right down the hall?

Does this really cost $500+ each infusion ?

Yes. Check out pricing for one center in US.

Cost of Ketamine Infusion Treatments - Ketamine Wellness Centers

How much does ketamine treatment cost? Learn more about insurance coverage and pricing for pain, anxiety, depression and more.

www.ketaminewellnesscenters.com

Ironically or not I'm sitting in a coffeehouse right now and the song "suicide is painless" just played.