I've never had much interest in enduring life in the first place, there is nothing appealing about having to exist, I've always seen getting through the days as being a burden. All that I do is look forward to falling asleep but even sleep doesn't offer me the relief that I look for, it could never do as long as there is the chance of waking up the next day.
I'm bored and tired of suffering, bored of the same thoughts, I simply dislike the whole concept of life. I don't get why anyone, no matter their life circumstances would want to endure life until old age. There's no benefit to doing that. I do believe that, in my case being disinterested with life can be a state of mind that nothing can alleviate apart from leaving this world.