Venting Enjoying ur last days?

[Tac0Johnz]

Hello, I'm currently planning on ctb in the next few months hopefully even sooner, and I was just wondering if anyone else is just casually enjoying being hedonistic until then? (For me it's just drinking my favorite wines during the day and eating my favorite foods)

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm unable to enjoy things so no

 

[L'absent]

No, for me there is nothing enjoyable about this existence. I will leave so I can suppress the horror of existence. Which Jew could have enjoyed the gas chamber awaiting liberation in the oven?

 

[Forever Sleep]

My CTB isn't imminent. I'm waiting on my Dad to go first and until then, I need to be able to function, hold down a job etc. So for now, I'm not exactly living hedonistically. I guess my current way of treating myself is worrying less. I still have plenty to worry about work wise but, I'm just not as much as I used to. It's nice to not have to worry about the future because I'm hoping not to have one!

Running up to the date though, I hope I will get to enjoy some things. There are a few places I'd like to visit or, revisit and, I love my food too. So, a few nice meals would be good while I still have taste buds.

I am enjoying having box sets on in the background while I work. All stuff I've seen before. Sometimes multiple times but, each time I come to the end- I'm like- I wonder if that will be the last time. I'm glad I got to see it one last time...

I hope you continue to enjoy your time.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

When I was very suicidal and close to an attempt last year I didn't enjoy anything.

 

[bitofftoomuch]

i'm considering doing this. actually it's the main appeal of CTBing to me.