Just wish I could join my mom

[VioletMalibu]

Lost my mom two years ago now. Being 36, I feel pathetic saying that I just can't get over this. I miss her so much and wish every night that she would just take me with her. She was my best friend and the only true unconditional support in my life. It doesn't help that I lost her a very short time after I came out to her as trans. I'm so angry at myself that I waited all these years to let her know who I was, and that by then it was essentially too late. I don't want to wake up tomorrow.

Does anyone here wish they could join someone they lost?

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Does anyone here wish they could join someone they lost?

 

[Manaaja]

Just because you're 36 doesn't mean experiencing someone's death would be easy. Especially if that someone was close to you. Some stay sensitive to death their whole lives. Some might even be nonsensitive and only get sensitive in their old age. It's normal and okay to cry even ten years after a death. I hope you can be in a body that feels best for you and meet your mom again.

I wanted to meet grandpa and cousin for years but not anymore. I have my own path now.

 

[summers]

Rich was a legend.

 

[pure soul]

Lost my mom two years ago now. Being 36, I feel pathetic saying that I just can't get over this. I miss her so much and wish every night that she would just take me with her. She was my best friend and the only true unconditional support in my life. It doesn't help that I lost her a very short time after I came out to her as trans. I'm so angry at myself that I waited all these years to let her know who I was, and that by then it was essentially too late. I don't want to wake up tomorrow.

Does anyone here wish they could join someone they lost?

Bro we are carbon copy; I also lost my mom in Nov 2020 due to covid and we are two bodies and one soul, I also wish every day she would just take me with her;I pray to God every minute and asking only one question to him that when and where I and my mom will meet again and how long should I wait.but when I think I ctb today then one question arise in my mind if my mother took rebirth again then how should i meet him. To become child again of him I should wait minimum for 25 years and then making this conclusion my every minute of life becomes centuries. Without her my life is a prison and punishment. I m stuck bro and did not make conclusion what should I do??!

 

[summers]

My mom died like 4 years ago. I missed her for a while, but I don't even think about her that much anymore. Maybe on her birthday or mother's day. I want the same for me when I go. I don't want people to dwell on me being gone, or want to join me. Just go on with their lives. For anyone who lost a parent, they want the same thing for you. Parents almost always die before their children. That's life/nature.

 

[logan]

I also lost my mother many years ago.

And in the meantime I only wish it would be over.

 

[Lady black]

Yes forever21, she was such a good person

 

[sadpinky]

I lost my partner 4 months ago now, this site is as close as I've come to any sort of therapy or talking about what happened. Thanks to its resources I know have the right SN I need to CTB, all I need is my meds and I'm on my way to find them.

 

[Samsara]

Lost my mom two years ago now. Being 36, I feel pathetic saying that I just can't get over this. I miss her so much and wish every night that she would just take me with her. She was my best friend and the only true unconditional support in my life. It doesn't help that I lost her a very short time after I came out to her as trans. I'm so angry at myself that I waited all these years to let her know who I was, and that by then it was essentially too late. I don't want to wake up tomorrow.

Does anyone here wish they could join someone they lost?

Hey VioletMalibu, you're not pathetic at all. Grief is one of the most unbearable and difficult experiences to have.

 

[StevieNixs]

Lost my mom two years ago now. Being 36, I feel pathetic saying that I just can't get over this. I miss her so much and wish every night that she would just take me with her. She was my best friend and the only true unconditional support in my life. It doesn't help that I lost her a very short time after I came out to her as trans. I'm so angry at myself that I waited all these years to let her know who I was, and that by then it was essentially too late. I don't want to wake up tomorrow.

Does anyone here wish they could join someone they lost?

Short answer yes and this is why I made plans. My sister died on 11July. I cannot sleep. I cannot function. I'm having constant flashbacks. I experienced 4 bereavements before my sister- father, older brother, grandmother and step father but nothing like this. Nothing. For me...I know that things will not get better.
I believe I know some of how you are feeling xx

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering. It is one of the saddest parts about life, losing people we love. It is not pathetic, the way you are feeling. Life is just so depressing. In my case, I was too young to remember when a few family members died. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[sunsetting]

I feel ya, lost mine when I was 16 and everything that came after was just terrible. It still hurts knowing the only person that actually cared for you will never come back.

 

[Bullit]

In the wake of my loss,yeah,life is SHIT! Its not going to get significantly better. I don't know.

 

[tryingtoescape]

That's not pathetic at all. Don't feel bad at all for not being able to "get over it." She was your mother. You loved her and she loved you. And that's why you're still grieving. It's normal. I'm so sorry you lost her, I hope you can meet again.