Discussion just want to know your experiences

[tanaka10]

Hi everyone, I'm new to this site.
if you want to share your age why want ctb or whatever you want ^^
I am 24 years old, depressed for 15 years, I have horrible traces of self-mutilation all over my arm. I have already tried all types of medication to get rid of it but I always relapse (quetiapine, aripiprazole, fluoxetine venlafaxine). the finale has arrived this year: I am a former medical student, I reached the 5th year and I have just learned that I am fired
it's the end of my life the annihilation of a lot of effort
now I just want to be at peace
I plan to use CTB using the amitriptyline method in combination with benzos (oxazepam probably the best benzo for CTB) phenobarbital and metoclopramide.
thank you for your feedback everyone ^^

 

[GuessWhosBack]

I'm sorry that you got fired - that sounds tough. I don't know how medical school works, but have you discussed with student services that you have some struggles that might require accommodation? Maybe a gap year could be discussed.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just wish to be at peace as well, it truly is so cruel and terrible how there's all this suffering in existing.

 

[Imagined_Euphoria]

I'm 22. My life since I'm a teenager just feels like a constant nightmare. There were some happy moments, sure, but compared to the suffering it's just insignificant.

 

[fivebeyond]

I don't have precise plans regarding ctb (I plan to hold out as long as I can - for the sake of my family, dog, etc.). Yet I'm sure that it's my only way out when the right time comes.

 

[rocketman99]

I have unbearable stomach issues and depression as a result. Can no longer work. Looking to go ASAP using N. Was thinking of either getting it myself or seeing if I can apply to one of the clinics in Switzerland. If all that fails, I'll probably eat 20 xanax, drink some vodka and shoot as much H as I can