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Zzzzz

Zzzzz

Nothing compares to the bliss of death.
Aug 8, 2018
879
Yea. Life sucks. Not much else to say. I just can't manage it. I've tried recovering but the incentives to keep living are so weak it is impossible for me not to think about ctb.
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
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Same for me basically..... I hate myself and my life. Ready to Go but I can't gather the Ultimate courage to pull the damn trigger.

Wish you the best,. Take care-

Butch
 
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ojinzo

ojinzo

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Feb 21, 2022
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Same for me basically..... I hate myself and my life. Ready to Go but I can't gather the Ultimate courage to pull the damn trigger.

Wish you the best,. Take care-

Butch
i am scared as well. Every single morning I practice partial and as soon as I begin to feel discomfort, I back out. i wish I had the courage or deep despair to just hang.
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
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Yep,. I know exactly what you mean sadly. Maybe one day we will take that final step,. Who knows.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,966
I am just waiting for death as well. I have never wanted to live and I never will. I am only still alive because ctb is so difficult. I wish that it was easier to leave this world. I know that it can be dreadful living a life which is only pain and suffering. I'm sorry you are in this situation. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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