Capt. Mothfly
Member
- Mar 27, 2021
- 28
heya y'all,
just wanted to talk..
It's been some time since ctb was my only goal. I cannot say things are much better tbh. In general it's still the same. I'm in chronic pain, have nightmares, suck at my job and my mind doesn't match my body. I'm also broke.
However, what changed is that I don't have to deal with suicidal thinking every f minute like before.
I moved away from my family. It's much less comfortable and actually it's a terrible dirty living but I enjoy it cause I can be myself. kinda.
I also got hope that in the future there actually lies a life ahead of me. Maybe I start my life later but whatever. I just want to be healthy again and believe that just like the everyday suicidal pain got away, the physical one will go away too.
sorry it's short, I've got crippling pain in both arms and hands.
Also, pine tree boy, I hope you're okay.
msg me pls, I'm worried
just wanted to talk..
It's been some time since ctb was my only goal. I cannot say things are much better tbh. In general it's still the same. I'm in chronic pain, have nightmares, suck at my job and my mind doesn't match my body. I'm also broke.
However, what changed is that I don't have to deal with suicidal thinking every f minute like before.
I moved away from my family. It's much less comfortable and actually it's a terrible dirty living but I enjoy it cause I can be myself. kinda.
I also got hope that in the future there actually lies a life ahead of me. Maybe I start my life later but whatever. I just want to be healthy again and believe that just like the everyday suicidal pain got away, the physical one will go away too.
sorry it's short, I've got crippling pain in both arms and hands.
Also, pine tree boy, I hope you're okay.
msg me pls, I'm worried
