lucid
antinatalist specialist
- Jun 29, 2019
- 177
this constant cycle of a short burst of happiness only to come back to reality for the longer period is wearing me the fuck out and i really can't deal with it.
i wake up, sit on my pc most of the day, play every single game i can think of that i won't get tired of after 5 seconds even though i still do, lie in my bed, think about how lonely i am and how much i wish i had someone to hold me but no one would want to because broken depressed messes who can't even take care of their own body are gross and disgusting, sleep, wake up and it just goes on.
i'm so fucking tired of everything, even coming here just to spill my mind onto a fucking post only to leave and then come back and do the same thing over and over. everythign is so fucking repetitive and i can't take it i wish i could just snap my fingers and not exist i can't fucking bare it anymore
i wake up, sit on my pc most of the day, play every single game i can think of that i won't get tired of after 5 seconds even though i still do, lie in my bed, think about how lonely i am and how much i wish i had someone to hold me but no one would want to because broken depressed messes who can't even take care of their own body are gross and disgusting, sleep, wake up and it just goes on.
i'm so fucking tired of everything, even coming here just to spill my mind onto a fucking post only to leave and then come back and do the same thing over and over. everythign is so fucking repetitive and i can't take it i wish i could just snap my fingers and not exist i can't fucking bare it anymore