SadPingu
Go out like a spark, my trauma and me.
- Jul 27, 2023
- 61
I joined last night, posted a little. Just wanted to say hi really. I stumbled across this site a while back and then managed to find it again yesterday.
So as a back story I was incorrectly diagnosed with depression in my very early 20s. Mid 20s diagnoses changed to Cyclothymia (borderline biplaor) and as of Dec 2021 that's progressed to bipolar type 2.
When I got the diagnosis in 2021 I was in a really bad place but once medicated improved massively. I stepped down from a managerial role I hated to something more junior and then spent the extra time applying for jobs in a sector I really wanted to work in. Successfully managed that and now have a wonderful job with wonderful T&C that pays a shed load.
However... Moving to a job that wasn't all life consuming has just given me time to reflect on what a PoS worthless failure I am. I went back to the doc, and they increased my meds. Some days it's OK most it's not and life is like functioning on autopilot while pretending I'm fine.
On top of all that my GP will currently only prescribe weekly meds to me due to past self harm and SI. Every time I go to the pharmacy it's this super awkward conversation as they can't get their head around why it's weekly and I more or less have to admit it's because my GP feels I'm a hazard to myself. Oh, and they made me surrender my driving licence too.
So as a back story I was incorrectly diagnosed with depression in my very early 20s. Mid 20s diagnoses changed to Cyclothymia (borderline biplaor) and as of Dec 2021 that's progressed to bipolar type 2.
When I got the diagnosis in 2021 I was in a really bad place but once medicated improved massively. I stepped down from a managerial role I hated to something more junior and then spent the extra time applying for jobs in a sector I really wanted to work in. Successfully managed that and now have a wonderful job with wonderful T&C that pays a shed load.
However... Moving to a job that wasn't all life consuming has just given me time to reflect on what a PoS worthless failure I am. I went back to the doc, and they increased my meds. Some days it's OK most it's not and life is like functioning on autopilot while pretending I'm fine.
On top of all that my GP will currently only prescribe weekly meds to me due to past self harm and SI. Every time I go to the pharmacy it's this super awkward conversation as they can't get their head around why it's weekly and I more or less have to admit it's because my GP feels I'm a hazard to myself. Oh, and they made me surrender my driving licence too.
