I literally have no one else to talk to so I'm just saying it here. I couldn't find a thread that was solely for venting so sorry if there's one.
I seriously have or had one of my worst episodes today. I threw up voluntary because I couldn't deal with all this tension anymore. I haven't done that in a year. I also cut myself so my new bedsheets are full of blood.
I sadly am out of alcohol or I would drink myself into oblivion now.
It's just that I got into something that made me feel rejected and now I feel like the most disgusting, filthiest piece of shit human being on the planet. I wish I could set myself on fire and burn everything down with me.
I don't know why this triggered me so bad. Probably because I've been feeling rather lonely and rejected for a while but I haven't had a breakdown like this in a while. I haven't cried like this in a long time.
I fucking hate living. I hate being me.
I seriously have or had one of my worst episodes today. I threw up voluntary because I couldn't deal with all this tension anymore. I haven't done that in a year. I also cut myself so my new bedsheets are full of blood.
I sadly am out of alcohol or I would drink myself into oblivion now.
It's just that I got into something that made me feel rejected and now I feel like the most disgusting, filthiest piece of shit human being on the planet. I wish I could set myself on fire and burn everything down with me.
I don't know why this triggered me so bad. Probably because I've been feeling rather lonely and rejected for a while but I haven't had a breakdown like this in a while. I haven't cried like this in a long time.
I fucking hate living. I hate being me.
