I would still be suicidal for sure, but FCK does it suck to have literally nothing to live for. I don't care about money, drugs, movies, games (I did when I used them to cope as a kid), sex, drugs , coffee, beer, cigars, sport, socializing, pets , kids, nothing.
I find nothing worth it, why have a pet that will make you miserable when they die , I can dream scenarios when I have a pet or anything really, I don't want them, I just want to die , I don't like this life, I don't like anything about it, I don't care what my brain wants, I don't care about the complexity of the stars , the soil, or black holes, I don't care about time space or stars, I don't care that I'm significant or insignificant, it does not trigger any reaction in me.
I hate the fact that I was brought here without my consent and that my brain didn't kill itself in pregnancy or that I didn't die with an umbilical cord on my neck.
What would you say to a psychiatrist, let's preface the fact that I might want to get help, what do you say to that fucker and what does he say back, well you seem kind of unwell, "for the safety of others" I might have to send you to a facility; AHA , the safety of others, I know I have no shot to start a revolution or do any harm to humanity but can you people at least MAKE IT HARDER for me to absolutely hate you?
(and no when they say for the safety of YOU and others, that only exists to make you feel better, they don't care about your safety or life do they? I'm pretty sure every single treatment only makes you more unable to hurt others and will eventually make you end yourself because it doesn't work on your actual issues, I'm waiting if anyone can change my view here)
I'm just gonna say it, I firmly believe that 90% mentally ill people are only treated BECAUSE THEY MIGHT BE A DANGER TO OTHERS and sometimes not even that, lol, sometimes they might only be treated so the doctors can get their paycheck. Of course there is no help for me , of course I feel like this, I was conditioned to feel like this, either I wanna be a passive aggressive shit eating human or suffer trying to be a "good" human.
Any diagnosis that I would get and any meds wouldn't make these statements and a lot more less true than they are and me choosing to still feel bad after taking the meds and coming to term with a diagnosis does not mean I don't want to get better, it just means that I still have a soul. What do you guys think? Is this a life worth living? everyday waking up and hating everything.
I find nothing worth it, why have a pet that will make you miserable when they die , I can dream scenarios when I have a pet or anything really, I don't want them, I just want to die , I don't like this life, I don't like anything about it, I don't care what my brain wants, I don't care about the complexity of the stars , the soil, or black holes, I don't care about time space or stars, I don't care that I'm significant or insignificant, it does not trigger any reaction in me.
I hate the fact that I was brought here without my consent and that my brain didn't kill itself in pregnancy or that I didn't die with an umbilical cord on my neck.
What would you say to a psychiatrist, let's preface the fact that I might want to get help, what do you say to that fucker and what does he say back, well you seem kind of unwell, "for the safety of others" I might have to send you to a facility; AHA , the safety of others, I know I have no shot to start a revolution or do any harm to humanity but can you people at least MAKE IT HARDER for me to absolutely hate you?
(and no when they say for the safety of YOU and others, that only exists to make you feel better, they don't care about your safety or life do they? I'm pretty sure every single treatment only makes you more unable to hurt others and will eventually make you end yourself because it doesn't work on your actual issues, I'm waiting if anyone can change my view here)
I'm just gonna say it, I firmly believe that 90% mentally ill people are only treated BECAUSE THEY MIGHT BE A DANGER TO OTHERS and sometimes not even that, lol, sometimes they might only be treated so the doctors can get their paycheck. Of course there is no help for me , of course I feel like this, I was conditioned to feel like this, either I wanna be a passive aggressive shit eating human or suffer trying to be a "good" human.
Any diagnosis that I would get and any meds wouldn't make these statements and a lot more less true than they are and me choosing to still feel bad after taking the meds and coming to term with a diagnosis does not mean I don't want to get better, it just means that I still have a soul. What do you guys think? Is this a life worth living? everyday waking up and hating everything.
