just letting myself have the freedom to feel bad

[tiredplant777]

I've decided to start letting myself feel bad if I feel bad, and not try to fight it or do anything about it. If I don't feel like helping myself it's ok. There's so much pressure to get better or to do all of this stuff. If I share how I feel to friends or others usually the response is that I need to feel better. Meditation does help me at times but I'm so tired of people telling me to do that stuff. I kind of don't care at all and it's much more helpful to just give up right now and not put in an effort. I have valid reasons for feeling bad. I also noticed that from this process it's getting easier to say no to people. Mostly because I feel numb but still lol. I knew recently if I didn't say no I'd feel worse so I did, and I had to say no repeatedly and I'm sort of proud of myself? Except I can't feel what it's like to feel proud so I don't know. I'm just really really tired, and I'm tired of trying to feel better and I think trying to feel better is doing me more harm than good.

 

[noaccount]

Yes

 

[waitingforrest]

I think all emotions serve some kind of purpose, even the bad ones.

It's great that you are acknowledging your emotions and feelings. It can feel like it is bad to feel negative emotions, but sometimes it's okay to not be okay. I wish you luck on your recovery.

 

[Dead beat dad]

Love and respect to you friend. Wish I had your character and resolve.
Good luck.

DBD