Venting Just found out my husband's cheating

[smallsupernova]

I've been with my husband for around seven years now, we've tried going polyamorous for a couple years but we got back to being mono for about a month now
Last night I got really high on pills and I lost my phone, he was asleep so I took his phone to call me and see where mine was
The first thing I saw was messages talking about dating, so I went into the chat (I know it was wrong of me going through his phone, but I was really high and sad) and saw a bunch of sexting and stuff with some people
My world's collapsing
When I confronted him he just said he's not used to being monogamous just yet
If you've seen any posts of mine here you'll know the only reason I haven't ctb is because of him, I feel angry and broken
Once I pay off my credit card I'm gonna purchase the sn and find peace from this, it's not worth it staying around for someone who does this to me
I'm shattered

 

[slinkey10]

I've been with my husband for around seven years now, we've tried going polyamorous for a couple years but we got back to being mono for about a month now
Last night I got really high on pills and I lost my phone, he was asleep so I took his phone to call me and see where mine was
The first thing I saw was messages talking about dating, so I went into the chat (I know it was wrong of me going through his phone, but I was really high and sad) and saw a bunch of sexting and stuff with some people
My world's collapsing
When I confronted him he just said he's not used to being monogamous just yet
If you've seen any posts of mine here you'll know the only reason I haven't ctb is because of him, I feel angry and broken
Once I pay off my credit card I'm gonna purchase the sn and find peace from this, it's not worth it staying around for someone who does this to me
I'm shattered

Collapse doesnt have to mean the end , you can start again... everything is too raw atm to make any clear decisions though!

seriously, all I can offer is to say a prayer for you.