Just feeling so rejected and alone

[Nirrend]

Hi everyone,

I swear, I'm really tired to continue living,

waiting some few days again is just too hard

If everything could end right now

Anyway

Loving you <3

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm also tired, the kind of tiredness that I feel is one that no amount of sleep could ever bring me relief from, only death could ever bring me the relief that I need. I understand that it's certainly tiring having to endure this existence when all that you want is to be gone. The thought of everything ending and this life being forgotten about is certainly comforting.
I wish you freedom.

 

[Nirrend]

I'm also tired, the kind of tiredness that I feel is one that no amount of sleep could ever bring me relief from, only death could ever bring me the relief that I need. I understand that it's certainly tiring having to endure this existence when all that you want is to be gone. The thought of everything ending and this life being forgotten about is certainly comforting.
I wish you freedom.

I'm sincerely sad for you @FuneralCry ... It's been years since you're here, we all feel bad for the pain you're living everyday and what makes me powerless when I read what you write is that you wish to die but you feel like methods are really hard to manage with ..

I'm really sorry for you and I thank you for the kinds words you are always sharing with the members here <3

May I ask you what is the method you wish you could have ? And also, why do you think that ctb is too hard for you in your opinion ?
I'm not judging neither incitating, I'm just sad for you

Sending you love <3

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sincerely sad for you @FuneralCry ... It's been years since you're here, we all feel bad for the pain you're living everyday and what makes me powerless when I read what you write is that you wish to die but you feel like methods are really hard to manage with ..

I'm really sorry for you and I thank you for the kinds words you are always sharing with the members here <3

May I ask you what is the method you wish you could have ? And also, why do you think that ctb is too hard for you in your opinion ?
I'm not judging neither incitating, I'm just sad for you

Sending you love <3

My ideal method would be N which I'm sure it would be for many suicidal people. Just something peaceful would be the best way to go.

Suicide is hard for me as we live in a world that wants to prolong our suffering making suicide unnecessarily complicated and difficult for us. I personally have limited access to methods and there is also the fear of failing ctb which I have mentioned many times. It's just not easy actually going through with it, but eventually I will find a way when life inevitably gets more unbearable. I will never reach old age no matter what but in the meantime I'm just trying to pass the time and hope that I pass away in my sleep.