Venting Just don't see the point anymore

[Suicide_vampire]

As above, I've been going down hill for weeks, have psych appointment a week tomorrow don't know if I'll make it, I'm just so tired of fighting for every scrap of help I get. It feels like no one cares, I just honestly don't see any point to going on anymore.

 

[PeterPrincple]

As above, I've been going down hill for weeks, have psych appointment a week tomorrow don't know if I'll make it, I'm just so tired of fighting for every scrap of help I get. It feels like no one cares, I just honestly don't see any point to going on anymore.

At least make that next psych appointment

 

[Oyoy]

Your pets wouldn't be the same and quite frankly I would miss your words.

 

[Mr2005]

I feel like this everyday. I don't have the answer. I just trundle along. Maybe it's just as pointless not being here

 

[Deleted member 1465]

That's what we do, fight for every bit of help there is when yes, they don't care.
I've given up on asking for help from them. Better to go on alone.
Id miss your presence here too.

 

[MsPotts]

I feel the same way. Theres no point to anything in my opinion. Our existence doesnt effect anyone or anything over time. Why struggle and be in pain and sadness, when we all die anyway?

 

[astro]

I can't imagine what it must feel like for no one to care about your suffering. I'm truly sorry.

 

[Sensei]

Vampire, my memory is wrecked after too many bipolar episodes, but I seem to recall that you're bipolar too. If so, do you have effective medication? It won't make your life fantastic and give it purpose automatically, but it will definitely make it easier for you to cope. Have you tried treating yourself? Exercise and meditation do wonders for many of us. It sounds like nonsense, but studies show that omega-3 and magnesium supplements help some of us. Maybe you knew all this already, but it never hurts to share.

 

[ThisWorldIsPointless]

its all a waste of money and time. sucks jsut to live you gotta go through all this bullshit like mental health.

 

[Beautiful_Disgrace]

It seems like quite a few people here care. The real question is how much you care.

Clearly you are still here for a reason. I know how hard it is to help yourself when no one else will. I know words from an online stranger don't mean much, but if I was in your life I would drive you to your psych appointment.

keep it and see how it goes.

 

[Lostandfound7]

I care, Honey...We care...

Pm if u need to talk..

 

[Suicide_vampire]

Hey all I just want to say thanks for all your kind words and support, is nice to know you care. After posting last night, I took a few extra diazepam on top of my night time meds, not to ctb just to knock myself out till morning, which it has done. And waking to your words has given me a tiny bit a of a reason to trundle on so my sincere thanks to all of you.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

a tiny bit a of a reason to trundle on

Cool It's not much but it's something. These days, I'll take a tiny bit of reason to trundle on as a win for the moment.

 

[Suicide_vampire]

Cool It's not much but it's something. These days, I'll take a tiny bit of reason to trundle on as a win for the moment.

Yes I agree, going to at least make it too psych appt next Monday unless it's cancelled with COVID19 I'm going to kick off a bit and demand more be done and take it from there, curious @Underscore when did you become a potato, love the new pic

 

[Deleted member 1465]

curious @Underscore when did you become a potato, love the new pi

A few days ago, he's cool; a friendly potato

 

[waterbottleman]

Nor do I my friend, nor do I....

I really need to get off my lazy ass and box all my stuff up in my apartment so I can ctb. It's just so hard to be motivated when I'm this depressed.