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Willow

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Sep 16, 2018
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I just purchased a gun. I went in quite sad and nervous but now I actually feel calm and better. It's good to know I have it available. Not sure if I'm going to go ahead and CTB today or wait a few days, but at least I'm prepared
 
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addictedfukup

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Feb 15, 2026
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you got it the same day you applied for it? i needa move states, what did you go end up going with?
 
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Willow

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Sep 16, 2018
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Yeah, where I live the background check is pretty easy. No waiting period.
I told the salesman I didn't know much about buying a gun and that I needed it for protection at home because I live in a bad neighborhood. He helped me decide on a 9 mm semiautomatic because it should be easy to use. Got hollow points
I really want to get this over with but I feel like I'm procrastinating. I went out there lunch and now I'm considering going to a hotel to get it over with
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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Wow. Bravo. I keep failing at this. What brand and model?
 
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addictedfukup

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Feb 15, 2026
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Yeah, where I live the background check is pretty easy. No waiting period.
I told the salesman I didn't know much about buying a gun and that I needed it for protection at home because I live in a bad neighborhood. He helped me decide on a 9 mm semiautomatic because it should be easy to use. Got hollow points
I really want to get this over with but I feel like I'm procrastinating. I went out there lunch and now I'm considering going to a hotel to get it over with
You should fire it a few times before you, its fun. I have a fun spot in the woods, remember, above the ear or in the mouth. I hope you find your peace ;)
 
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Willow

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Sep 16, 2018
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I actually looked back to see the make and model and I was wrong- it's a 380. Smith and Wesson. The salesman was super thorough and showed me lots of guns so I couldn't even remember what I bought. It's 380 Shield EZ. I honestly was surprised how easy it was to buy. Once I got over the initial fear I just chatted to the guy and he showed me how to hold the guns and the different types, and then a pretty quick background check and that was all
 
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OnMyLast Legs

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You have more courage than I do. It really is that easy.
 
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Willow

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Sep 16, 2018
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Now the part that really requires courage. I checked into a motel and I'm moving forward from here.
 
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Baisley

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Jan 18, 2025
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Now the part that really requires courage. I checked into a motel and I'm moving forward from here.
If you don't mind me asking. What state do you live in? I can't believe you got the gun the same day you went. That's amazing.
 

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