
VegasLyra
Member
- Jan 16, 2021
- 18
typing this on my broken phone that suffered damage during ny fall in my pocket. Soo this my 2nd time attempting and failing full suspension, both of whivh ended with mee on the ground in insufferable pain because the rope broke.
I'm currently surroundded by neighbors and some of my family (most of my immediate family is in my village) and the usual "hOw CoUlD yOu dO tHiS to yOur fAmiLy" tirades are happening.
Honestly... I just feel so ddeflated. I cantr wait till everyonr goes away so I can just cry and cry and cry. I think this is the lastt time I try hanging. It's clear I'm too overweight for it and any rope is gonna break.
And it's just mot worth it. The pain from going backk conscious is so extreme, it felt like an eternity of suffering befroe i could take aa bretah.
I really wish I lived in a developed counrry so i can get a gun or SN but unfortunately life isnt fair. Regardless i love you all so fuckking much necausey youre the only people who understand what I'm going through. Gonna log off now
I'm currently surroundded by neighbors and some of my family (most of my immediate family is in my village) and the usual "hOw CoUlD yOu dO tHiS to yOur fAmiLy" tirades are happening.
Honestly... I just feel so ddeflated. I cantr wait till everyonr goes away so I can just cry and cry and cry. I think this is the lastt time I try hanging. It's clear I'm too overweight for it and any rope is gonna break.
And it's just mot worth it. The pain from going backk conscious is so extreme, it felt like an eternity of suffering befroe i could take aa bretah.
I really wish I lived in a developed counrry so i can get a gun or SN but unfortunately life isnt fair. Regardless i love you all so fuckking much necausey youre the only people who understand what I'm going through. Gonna log off now