Venting Just an update - don't know what I'm doing

[Freedomatlast24]

So far I have SN ordered.

I have 5 x 10mg Meto
5 x 10mg of Propranolol

from online pharmacies (neither is supposedly enough of a dosage).

Milk of magnesia.

Written notes but I'll never be happy with them.

I throw up so easily. SN was never my chosen method, I have no idea how to execute it considering my living situation.

 

[sorrowful]

Throwing up seems almost unavoidable even with AE from some posts I've seen on here. People have thrown up and still effectively managed to CTB. Regardless, I hope that you are able to find peace in whatever you choose. Best wishes.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you all the best in whatever happens going forward.

 

[Freedomatlast24]

So far I have SN ordered.

I have 5 x 10mg Meto
5 x 10mg of Propranolol

from online pharmacies (neither is supposedly enough of a dosage).

Milk of magnesia.

Written notes but I'll never be happy with them.

I throw up so easily. SN was never my chosen method, I have no idea how to execute it considering my living situation.

I want to discuss my method with people, at the moment it doesn't look like my SN is leaving the country of origin...

I have the nitrite testing stuff.

I just really fail to have the energy, trust, motivation to write long posts & discuss over message. I wish I could make real connections on here but fail to as I don't have the energy even for myself.

I really want to discuss all the logistics of carrying this out in the circumstances I am in...

 

[Freedomatlast24]

I wish I could just have someone I know on the phone to me supporting me CTBing. I've never been able to do anything alone, I'm weak & I don't relate to a lot of people here. The whole process scares the shit out of me.

 

[shame]

I wish I could just have someone I know on the phone to me supporting me CTBing. I've never been able to do anything alone, I'm weak & I don't relate to a lot of people here. The whole process scares the shit out of me.

Same..
You are not alone

So far I have SN ordered.

I have 5 x 10mg Meto
5 x 10mg of Propranolol

from online pharmacies (neither is supposedly enough of a dosage).

Milk of magnesia.

Written notes but I'll never be happy with them.

I throw up so easily. SN was never my chosen method, I have no idea how to execute it considering my living situation.

Why do you need magnesia?

 

[Freedomatlast24]

Same..
You are not alone

Maybe we can chat?

Why do you need magnesia?

It was on a most recent protocol, it's basically a form of anti-acid!