Discussion just an invitation

[a_french_guy]

I'm fucking tired of putting up with this constant discomfort. I have been in a toxic relationship with a friend for almost a year. it's crazy how we feel dependent on a person even if they are toxic with us. I no longer enjoy playing video games, reading books or watching movies. I turned to music because it manages to put letters to my thoughts. I don't understand what I did wrong to get here. I feel so alone right now. in friendship and love. maybe I'm too bad for this world. Yet I try to hide my inner demons and I think I'm doing quite well. I'm the "very forgettable" guy. I would so love to make friends. "real" friends. I had one that I took care of when he was down. I have always been by these sides. I told him everything too and I trusted him more than anyone. and one day he unpacked everything to his friends. absolutely everything. and they started harassing me on the networks. I'm alone now. life is so much sadder when you're alone... i have thoughts and cravings that make me feel even more different from other people. keeping these kinds of secrets is very hard and mentally taxing. I even installed an app to talk to people to make friends and got insulted for free. I told myself that on this site I would be better welcomed and that was the case. people answered me with a lot of kindness and frankness and it touched me a lot.
all that to say that I am available for any discussion on any subject and that I would be happy to discuss with you on any platform. instagram, discord, on SS, or on any other. I would be very happy to speak with you
thank you for reading all this and have a nice day

 

[The anhedonic one]

I used to support a suicidal friend.
I always went the extra mile to help them.
Nothing was too much trouble.
They eventually went into recovery.
They ghosted me, shortly after getting better.
I have never heard from them since.

 

[Outandproud]

Come to the telegram group if u want. U sound so cute

 

[a_french_guy]

I used to support a suicidal friend.
I always went the extra mile to help them.
Nothing was too much trouble.
They eventually went into recovery.
They ghosted me, shortly after getting better.
I have never heard from them since.

And they let you down...

 

[lagoona-a-go-go]

I've been feeling the same way. You worded it better than I could. I'm sorry about your last friend, you didn't deserve that.