Venting just a vent

[serah]

its really hard to find the motivation to live when you feel worthless and hate yourself. my social anxiety doesnt help. i rely on other people to feel happy. i dont know how to live with myself, i dont know who i am. id become anyone if it meant people would care about me. its so fucking hard living when you walk into every single room and feel like you're the worst person there. i hate my moodswings. i hate how sensitive i am. i get so offended at everything because i have no self worth and the very little ive created is based off other peoples opinions of me. i live for others. how could i be happy living as myself. i dont know who i am. sometimes it feels likw im just playing an act to get attention from those around me. its so tiring. all the real me does is cry about how much i wish i could die. my medicatuon stopped working. and therapy feels like advice i wont ever take because my mind convinces me it'll never work. that i'll never be able to live as a normal person.

 

[Roseate]

I don't know if this will help but I used, I still feel this way but you never know until you try. It's better to give it all your all and if it doesn't work, you'll at least know you have it your best shot. And if you want to talk, you can message me. You're not alone.

 

[FuneralCry]

That does sound really tiring what you have to go through, it's true that there could never be anything fair about existing in this world where people suffer all through no fault of their own. But anyway, best wishes.