relateble.
i relised that i only really have one friend in school, and then there is some people i talk to every now and then but, i dont know what to do, i have two bestfriends, and i was so stupied, i made them become friends and then they started hanging out without me, and when the new girl in our trio told me about it and i asked why they didnt ask me to go with them, she just said, "oh, i thought you were invited, guess not, heh" and left, like girl walked away, and the other one whom i have known since i was 5!!!! never texts me, its always me who have to text first and now we havnt talked since halloween afternoon (december 16 today).
the new girl also said that she dosnt wanna hang out with just me so much anymore because she thinks its borning when its just me and her. and she never picks up when i call and never answers my texts. she says she would rather hang out the whole friend group (5 people) then just me, i have told her its hard for me to be around many people for a long period of time and she just dosnt care. its also hard since we always have to meet up in another city and she always have someone to drive her but i dont and then they get mad when im late or say i dont feel like it. and when/if i do go out with them, her and the other girl keeps saying "wrist check!!" like, yeah, i wear braclets for a reason. also when i oppend up to her about my S.H. she just started watching tiktok. and when i told her about my suicidal thoughts she just started making fun of it saying stuff like, i was going to pull a kurt cobain, and started listing ways people have killed themselves.
yeah sorry for rambling, i just needed to tell someone.
