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Beachygirl

Beachygirl

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Jan 3, 2020
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Hi all im looking to jump but how can I si from kicking in any help would be great as I really want to go sooner rather than later.
 
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Tartuffe

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Mar 31, 2022
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Alcohol.probably, what what are you looking to.jump from
 
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Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,758
Alcohol/Benzos
 
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Huntfish34

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Mar 13, 2020
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I agree with alcohol for sure. Was also going to mention any type of drugs / substances if you have access or are willing to try them. I realize that everyone is different and won't partake upon them.

Before I Ctb and pull the trigger ... I'll most likely get loaded on alcohol, Xanax, weed, and mushrooms 🍄 to combat my crazy SI.

I wish you Nothing but the best, thoughts and prayers to you in whatever may happen ♥
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Jumping sounds like a terrifying method to me, but I really do admire those who had the courage for it. Maybe many of the people who managed to leave this world that way just got so desperate to be free from this existence, and this allowed them to overcome the SI but anyway I wish you the best of luck.
 
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Lonerzepam

Lonerzepam

O'lord! I Have My Doubts
Sep 2, 2022
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I don't give the slightest fuck about anything on Heroin, Benzos and Alcohol but sure last ones are not that accesible
 
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pyroxenic

pyroxenic

Wanting to Sleep for Eternity
Feb 3, 2023
83
I dont want to lessen your hope even more, but i tried to CTB by jumping (30 meters) and, well, i survived. 1 month of being crippled and with spine problems + 1 less organ as a result of the fall. Theres still a high chance youll survive, with alcohol or not. The more height you fall from of course theres more chance of dying but the physical consequances of the fall are too high as well. Jumping is too much of a high risk for future disabilities, you should reconsider your options. Best of luck 💙
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,881
I dont want to lessen your hope even more, but i tried to CTB by jumping (30 meters) and, well, i survived. 1 month of being crippled and with spine problems + 1 less organ as a result of the fall. Theres still a high chance youll survive, with alcohol or not. The more height you fall from of course theres more chance of dying but the physical consequances of the fall are too high as well. Jumping is too much of a high risk for future disabilities, you should reconsider your options. Best of luck 💙
how did you land? on the feet, back, stomach?
did you come across something hard?
are you sure it was 30 meters?
building?
were you slowed down in your fall?

Thanks i Dream to jump in 50/55 meter
https://www.google.com/search?q=tra...ome-mobile&ie=UTF-8&chrome_dse_attribution=1#
 

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pyroxenic

pyroxenic

Wanting to Sleep for Eternity
Feb 3, 2023
83
how did you land? on the feet, back, stomach?
did you come across something hard?
are you sure it was 30 meters?
building?
were you slowed down in your fall?
Funny enough, i only survived because i landed on a bed cushion in some sort of isolated beach (it was more of an dumpster beach where people/fishers leave trash, and its isolated in a way you have to climb down to go there) and because i was found on time, i landed on my back direclty and it wasnt a building due to the place i choose to jump off, and last time i checked i was told it was 30 meters.

Its advised to jump from at least 10-20 storeys, the altitude was not enough.

Even so, the height was enough to leave me with one less organ and permenant spine damage from the impact, and i was a young teenager at the time of the incident, the fact i wasnt left off with more damage in my body was a miracle of itself since i was small and young, if things were any different at that time then i would be disabled or wouldnt have made it.
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,881
Ok what IS bed cushion?

Your Back in this? And your head!

1675691810972
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,881
Pyroxénique , are you fallen in this?
 
pyroxenic

pyroxenic

Wanting to Sleep for Eternity
Feb 3, 2023
83
Ok what IS bed cushion?

Your Back in this? And your head!

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Oh no, i meant the actual bed foam where you sleep on, its probably a language barrier on my part so sorry for any confusion, and id also appreciate if you dont make jokes regarding what i talked about, considering the topic :/
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,881
Oh non, je voulais dire la mousse du lit sur laquelle vous dormez , c'est probablement une barrière linguistique de ma part, donc désolé pour toute confusion, et j'apprécie également si vous ne faites pas de blagues sur ce dont j'ai parlé, compte tenu du sujet :/
thank you very much for the reference. I am very very bad at English. so you mean a mattress and not a cushion?

this is REALLY NOT a joke AT ALL :-(
(see my topic on the jump from the 19th floor about 55 m)
 

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pyroxenic

pyroxenic

Wanting to Sleep for Eternity
Feb 3, 2023
83
thank you very much for the reference. I am very very bad at English. so you mean a mattress and not a cushion?

this is REALLY NOT a joke AT ALL :-(
(see my topic on the jump from the 19th floor about 55 m)
YES I MEANT THE MATRESS 😭😭 and youre okay dont worry 👍 i make mistakes in English all the time as well, but thank you for clarifying you werent joking, youre good :)
 
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Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,881
I filled out a document for my attending physician and my psychiatrist (advance directives printed on the internet) stating that I did not want anyone to persist, and not leave me in a vegetative state. I will also take it with me in my wallet and a photocopy will remain in the room for the help that will come. I also indirectly told my family (not to mention suicide) that if a serious accident happened I did not want to end up in a vegetative state....
 
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H.O.Xan

Specialist
Feb 1, 2023
305
if u jumped headfirst into the solid ground u wouldn't have made it. also, if u don't mind me asking, what organ did u lose as a part of ur ordeal?
 

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