hoppybunny
Fearer of the Future
- Jun 26, 2024
- 223
I graduated in August and I'm currently job hunting. And omg this sucks. I'm tired and i just want a job so i can move out. Today i was talking to an old friend and found out they were working in a company i just received a rejection from 2 days ago.
I won't lie i was extremely envious and almost blocked them but i knew that wouldn't help me improve as a human.
What really upsets me is when inwas talking to older people in companies and roles inwas interested in almost all of them had such a stupid fucking way they got their jobs.
Literally one of them was a receptionist with a latin degree, and only got into tech caause one of the IT people was sick or something and now 30 or so years later they're head of global crisis or something. And it's like so many other old people all started in tech like that.
The part that makes me so angry is that these same people are now the ones telling me I'm unhireable because i "ONLY" have a degree and no internships. I'm currently working on projects and studying for tech interviews but it's super hard cause i have like no passion besides wanting to move out.
But so many people i talked to only got the job cause they knew someone or by chance yet I'm apparently just a terrible hire cause i don't have 4 internships and 50 projects
Like man this just sucks so much.
If i don't have a job by december I'll go to law school. Cause it's "easier" to me than a masters.
But i hope i don't resort to that cause i can't rely on my parents anymore.
I'm so scared I'll never be free. I want to have my own life already. I can't do this anymore.
My mum keeps making jabs at me and forcing me to do things i Don't want to. I say i don't want to do a graduation party and i don't want to attend my graduation ceremony and all my relatives keep saying oh u deserve it, u should go, ull regret it. When in reality all these ceremonies have no value and are a waste of my time and energy. The graduation party isn't even for me. It's just for my mum to brag about having a graduated child even though she's embarrassed of me cause I'm fat and hate wearinf girly clothes.
Then she starts making me wear girly clothes and makeup and wants me to rip my hair out getting tight brades and damage it with chemicals.
Like I'm a grown ass adult and i can't even choose what to wear.
I stay in my room all day cause i have no life and no money and my mother treats me like a lazy parasite for it.
I'm so sick of everything.
I'm almost considering a warehouse job to be free but i know physical health is all i have left and if i ruin it then my mental health will take another toll.
I won't lie i was extremely envious and almost blocked them but i knew that wouldn't help me improve as a human.
What really upsets me is when inwas talking to older people in companies and roles inwas interested in almost all of them had such a stupid fucking way they got their jobs.
Literally one of them was a receptionist with a latin degree, and only got into tech caause one of the IT people was sick or something and now 30 or so years later they're head of global crisis or something. And it's like so many other old people all started in tech like that.
The part that makes me so angry is that these same people are now the ones telling me I'm unhireable because i "ONLY" have a degree and no internships. I'm currently working on projects and studying for tech interviews but it's super hard cause i have like no passion besides wanting to move out.
But so many people i talked to only got the job cause they knew someone or by chance yet I'm apparently just a terrible hire cause i don't have 4 internships and 50 projects
Like man this just sucks so much.
If i don't have a job by december I'll go to law school. Cause it's "easier" to me than a masters.
But i hope i don't resort to that cause i can't rely on my parents anymore.
I'm so scared I'll never be free. I want to have my own life already. I can't do this anymore.
My mum keeps making jabs at me and forcing me to do things i Don't want to. I say i don't want to do a graduation party and i don't want to attend my graduation ceremony and all my relatives keep saying oh u deserve it, u should go, ull regret it. When in reality all these ceremonies have no value and are a waste of my time and energy. The graduation party isn't even for me. It's just for my mum to brag about having a graduated child even though she's embarrassed of me cause I'm fat and hate wearinf girly clothes.
Then she starts making me wear girly clothes and makeup and wants me to rip my hair out getting tight brades and damage it with chemicals.
Like I'm a grown ass adult and i can't even choose what to wear.
I stay in my room all day cause i have no life and no money and my mother treats me like a lazy parasite for it.
I'm so sick of everything.
I'm almost considering a warehouse job to be free but i know physical health is all i have left and if i ruin it then my mental health will take another toll.
