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standingfast

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Aug 29, 2024
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Hello

I was chatting with "J" over the past couple days. She never announced she was going but today I received a schedule message that she was gone. And she requested me to let the forum know, but requested her username not be shared. She said she was alone in life and no one that would know she was gone.

I feel guilty in that she said maybe I could stay alive for her and she could stay alive for me, but I wasn't able to promise it. So if I had agreed she might still be here. Yet she seemed at peace in her decision and final note to me.

Please send peace and love ❤️ to "J".
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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ForgottenAgain

ForgottenAgain

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Oct 17, 2023
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So sorry for your loss. I hope J's passing was quick and peaceful, she won't suffer anymore. Godspeed J 🕊
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

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Jun 2, 2024
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wishing J relief and peace.
 
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regular john

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Dec 17, 2020
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Hello

I was chatting with "J" over the past couple days. She never announced she was going but today I received a schedule message that she was gone. And she requested me to let the forum know, but requested her username not be shared. She said she was alone in life and no one that would know she was gone.

I feel guilty in that she said maybe I could stay alive for her and she could stay alive for me, but I wasn't able to promise it. So if I had agreed she might still be here. Yet she seemed at peace in her decision and final note to me.

Please send peace and love ❤️ to "J".
did she tell you what method she was planning to use ?
 
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SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,802
I hope "J" sleeps well and peacefully. And that you find your own rest in knowing she trusted and reached out to you. You have nothing about which to feel guilty, in a world of deceit you kept faith with her in your honesty. Be kind to yourself.
 
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standingfast

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CatLvr

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As others have said you have nothing to feel guilty for. You were a friend to them and that is enough.
 
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unhopeful

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Aug 31, 2023
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Thank you for being a such a kind friend to J, please don't feel guilty. You were nothing but kind to her.

I wish J eternal peace. May she be free from pain and sorrow. She is so brave and strong.
 
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Lost Magic

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Please don't feel guilty for anything. Your friend was clearly suffering, but she will suffer no more. 🤗
 
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SA1994EC

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Jan 28, 2021
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@standingfast, You should feel guilty. I thank you so much for letting us know. You lost your friend, and I am very sorry for your loss.

J, wherever you are, I hope you are finally at peace now.
 
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lordfungington

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Sep 1, 2021
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Hello

I was chatting with "J" over the past couple days. She never announced she was going but today I received a schedule message that she was gone. And she requested me to let the forum know, but requested her username not be shared. She said she was alone in life and no one that would know she was gone.

I feel guilty in that she said maybe I could stay alive for her and she could stay alive for me, but I wasn't able to promise it. So if I had agreed she might still be here. Yet she seemed at peace in her decision and final note to me.

Please send peace and love ❤️ to "J".
rip J. fly high 🕊️
 
NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
2,519
Godspeed, J.

@standingfast you have nothing to feel guilty for. Be kind to yourself; you helped a friend and they clearly trusted you.
 
LoveroftheDark

LoveroftheDark

no more recovery :/
Oct 24, 2024
31
Rest in peace J, hope you found what you've been looking for 🕊️🫶
 
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SA1994EC

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Jan 28, 2021
326
@standingfast, You should feel guilty. I thank you so much for letting us know. You lost your friend, and I am very sorry for your loss.

J, wherever you are, I hope you are finally at peace now.
Very sorry it is a typo.

@standingfast, you should NOT feel guilty. I thank you so much for letting us know. You lost your friend, and I am very sorry for your loss.
J, wherever you are, I hope you are finally at peace now.
 
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uglyugly

Student
Aug 24, 2024
163
Rest in peace, J.

IMO you have nothing to feel guilty for. You were there for her, you witnessed her pain, and there is no higher honor to do for another soul.
 
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skatergirl

Student
Oct 28, 2024
137
Hello

I was chatting with "J" over the past couple days. She never announced she was going but today I received a schedule message that she was gone. And she requested me to let the forum know, but requested her username not be shared. She said she was alone in life and no one that would know she was gone.

I feel guilty in that she said maybe I could stay alive for her and she could stay alive for me, but I wasn't able to promise it. So if I had agreed she might still be here. Yet she seemed at peace in her decision and final note to me.

Please send peace and love ❤️ to "J".
May she rip what method did she choose
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,132
Thank you for letting the forum know. Rest in peace 'J'.

Like others have said- there's nothing for you to feel guilty for. You were honest. It's a big thing to promise to hold on for others. It's something I would never promise. I think it's better to be honest rather than go back on a promise. I'm sorry for your loss. It must feel strange. I'm sure she was grateful to have your support though.
 
not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
11,151
I'm sorry for your loss. 🤗 May she rest in peace. :heart::hug::heart::hug::heart:
 

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