I've started writing my first suicide note.

[kuroshimi]

Last night the electricity went out in my house and I was pretty bored. So I finally decided to write my first note (the version that dedicated to my friends (mostly on the internet) and everyone else, that one that will go to my personal blog.

It's relatively small, yet I think that I've touched on the main point. I pointed out that it's nobody's fault and also that I enjoyed spending time with everyone who was with me. Ended up writing something like "I am at better place now and finally found peace".

I reread it multiple times in the morning and felt a bit sad. Began to imagine how they would feel after reading this (especially that one friend, whom I have known for almost 9 (!) years and with whom we even met in person after we both get to the same university). Besides, I still feeling that so much is left out, but I don't know what else to point out and how to fully express myself.

I guess when I finish this it will be time to prepare to write to another version of the note, which I will leave on place (mainly for my parents) and I think it will be more detailed in some way (for example, instructions on how to access some part of my digital life, since it is somewhat complicated).

What do you think?

 

[amor.dor]

I think you did a good job because: "Began to imagine how they would feel after reading this" really shows your empathy and the strength of your letter.

I think you should write or rewrite it as many times as necessary until you feel you've said everything — to a point where you feel you've completed your final work. From my perspective, this letter is that final piece. Don't rush to finish.



Take care.

 

[kuroshimi]

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