I’ve screwed up too badly to keep living

[previousjellyfish]

So, as I see it, I don't really have any other way out. I've screwed up too badly to stay alive. I can't fix it and the only solution is to die.

I did something incredibly stupid. I screwed at work and then I got sick a week later. I forgot to get a doctor's note so I changed the date on an old one and sent that in. They caught it and now I'm on a probationary period. They're also saying that I've threatened to sue people over distracting my service dog, which I haven't. I have been late multiple times because I'm so depressed I can't get out of bed. I feel awful and this is kind of my last ditch effort.

 

[timf]

If things have gotten bad at work, you may wish to resign and get another job where you won't have all the history.

You might try a temp agency or part time work as well. You want to be careful of a narrow focus as it can amplify things out of proportion.

 

[Tonight634]

I'm sorry that this is happening to you...Sometimes everything falls apart, like literally. I can't really help you with your situation, all I can say is I get it, the getting out of bed part is real. And also people can be shit too...I hope things will get better for you somehow.

 

[FuneralCry]

I am sorry that things are so hopeless, it sounds like you are going through a lot, this life can be so depressing and stressful. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[soup noodles]

hey, this situation isn't completely unfixable, yeah? it's not an easy one. but if you're not ready to die, you don't have to.

whichever way things go in the future, wishing you the best <3

 

[indigomoon]

This situation is not hopeless. You said you were on probation. That's not the end of the world. Go to work on time and do your best. If they come at you with something, ask for documentation. If you do something that they might question, document it. Cover your ass. And if this job doesn't work out for some reason, look for a new one. You might want to pro-actively start looking for one now, while you're still there. That way you have a backup plan. You might find something that you like better. This is not the end. It's a hiccup. You can do this.

 

[Cathy Ames]

So, as I see it, I don't really have any other way out. I've screwed up too badly to stay alive. I can't fix it and the only solution is to die.

I did something incredibly stupid. I screwed at work and then I got sick a week later. I forgot to get a doctor's note so I changed the date on an old one and sent that in. They caught it and now I'm on a probationary period. They're also saying that I've threatened to sue people over distracting my service dog, which I haven't. I have been late multiple times because I'm so depressed I can't get out of bed. I feel awful and this is kind of my last ditch effort.

You didn't ask for advice, but I'm wondering if you can ask for an ADA "accommodation" (like flexible schedule).

 

[Huntfish34]

I agree ,. It's not a hopeless situation and there are other ways out if you so choose.... But I Totally understand what you mean and I'm pretty much in the same situation myself. I feel like I have a Bigg target on my back from messing up orders, being late, sick time,.. the list goes on.

However,. My fucked off job and bosses ' are just a tip of the iceberg for me,. I've felt like CTB for some years before this job even came to be. It's just compiling onto Alll of the other shit I've been through. It's all fairly rough,. Life sucks.

Wishing you the best in whatever may happen,. I get it. For sure. Take care of yourself if possible.