Venting Ive never wanted to ctb more than now

[paroxyical]

ive screwed everything up im so hopeless i just tried partial bit it didnt work. i have no hope in my life. trauma always finds its way back to me. no one can love me coz im a disgusting person. please i just want to die.
im so gonna get dumped

 

[Ghost2211]

Sending you hugs and love I'm sorry you're struggling right now. Is there anything you can do to help calm yourself a bit like have a yummy snack or watch something funny on TV or even a warm bath?

 

[Oyoy]

We are all gonna die anyway. What's the rush? Dead is forever. You will get laid before you know it. Sex is only a big deal until your having it. Mae west

 

[paroxyical]

We are all gonna die anyway. What's the rush? Dead is forever. You will get laid before you know it. Sex is only a big deal until your having it. Mae west

im not a virgin
ive messed up so bad that i think ive lost all hope i dont know how to fix things from here. he isnt gonna give me another chance why would he