I’ve never felt more ready than right now.

[mainlanders_son]

I took 4.5 pills of Klonopin last night because I wanted to blank my consciousness out. I woke up feeling the death drive deeply, craving the non-consciousness of low dose Klonopin "sleep". My partner even woke me up last night and convinced me to go upstairs to bed. I remember none of it.

I want this feeling for the rest of eternity. The unknowing. The unperceiving. The forever blank.

I think the Klonopins are still with me. Causing me not to give a fuck.

 

[Callie Arcale]

Each day when I wake up in the morning I think "I just died for 8 hours…. Sweet!"

I am not afraid of death at all. I die every time I fall asleep. Pure nothingness.

 

[unnecessary]

Each day when I wake up in the morning I think "I just died for 8 hours…. Sweet!"

I am not afraid of death at all. I die every time I fall asleep. Pure nothingness.

Maybe that's why sleeping is so good, it's a kind of trial version of death, I like to sleep when I don't have dreams.

 

[unabletocope]

Same.

 

[Callie Arcale]

Maybe that's why sleeping is so good, it's a kind of trial version of death, I like to sleep when I don't have dreams.

I think dreamless sleep is the closest we can get to what death is like.