Venting I've made my decision

[dantexxnfrn]

yesterday i made my decision. i don't want to get better anymore. I'm gonna kill myself.

i already wanted to kill myself, but I didn't exactly planned it. but now i know what i want. I'll move out from my parents' house, then i can die alone in peace.

the main reason i don't just kill myself right now is because i don't want them to find my dead body and be traumatized by it or even try to stop me. i know they'll probably feel bad when they receive the news, but it's better than finding me bleeding on the floor. my mom always told me to just kill myself so I'm doing her a favor.

when i made that decision, i felt peaceful. it's like i don't have to worry with my future anymore because there is no future for me.

i hope i can move out soon. wish me luck.

 

[BadVibes]

good luck soldier. sail smoothly

 

[FuneralCry]

I just wish for peace as well from this torturous existence, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[xAranelle]

I made the same decision a few years ago. But then I did something stupid. I fell in love. Moved in with a guy. Have a 'great' life, we live comfortably, and we're happy together. I don't know how I could have done something like this. Got another person for whom it'll be traumatic. Good luck with your plan. It's peaceful. I regret I messed it up. Guilt piles up.

 

[Hollowman]

Sorry to hear about your mom, she's disturbed. Good luck with whatever happens.