wildbluekiss
i don't have a map for where i am now
- Jan 22, 2024
- 74
sometimes ago, it felt suffocating. i didn't like it, i wanted someone or something to put an end to those thoughts. i want to be helped, i want to be motivated, i want to be saved: you name it.
these days, these months, these years,
no explosive episodes, no tears either, no rage, no nothing. i'm actually in peace thinking about my death, my dead body… my fleeting life, my fragile self, me as a loser in general. my wish is for this self to die, i have no hope for anything else.
i'm actually in tranquility dreaming about it. about my disappearance and their disappointment. not like it will matter to me, because by then, i will be no longer present.
these days, these months, these years,
no explosive episodes, no tears either, no rage, no nothing. i'm actually in peace thinking about my death, my dead body… my fleeting life, my fragile self, me as a loser in general. my wish is for this self to die, i have no hope for anything else.
i'm actually in tranquility dreaming about it. about my disappearance and their disappointment. not like it will matter to me, because by then, i will be no longer present.
