Venting I've finally made a decision, I'll leave this world on January, 21st.

[virginiawoolf86]

I'm sorry that you're suffering and that you'll be going so soon after offering to "be" with me during my time. I'll be gone by then, but you'll be in my heart. Whatever you decide, I hope that you find the happiness you deserve. Con mucho amor amigo. Nos vemos.

 

[ansiedad]

Sorry man.
I hope you will found peace and calm in your ctb.

 

[AutoTap]

Truth be told, I know nothing about exit bag. I just haven't done a proper research. Let's say I'm obsessed with SN (I used to pick partial hanging but I failed two times at it)

I've seen many members left us because of SN so I think it's the most suitable method for me.

Wish you peace, you will be leaving before my date! I'll miss you!


@TooMuchToBear

Yes, I was about to have a chance at life again but I'm having such panic attacks that I can't endure this life anymore. It's kinda a rush but, I really need to leave. You might be a newbie but you look like a lovely person! Thank you so much for your comment. I'll miss you!

I understand I also have panic attacks/anxiety attacks etc. fucking sucks and is such sufferibg

 

[ansiedad]

I understand I also have panic attacks/anxiety attacks etc. fucking sucks and is such sufferibg

Yes, its all pain and suffering.
I hate the anxiety.
Why we have it?
:(

 

[WornOutLife]

I'm sorry that you're suffering and that you'll be going so soon after offering to "be" with me during my time. I'll be gone by then, but you'll be in my heart. Whatever you decide, I hope that you find the happiness you deserve. Con mucho amor amigo. Nos vemos.

Thanks, dear. Btw, of course I'll "be" with you as I promised. (Unless you leave after me). Still, I'm not sure if I'll ctb on 21st, though. My mind is doubting lots. I wonder what will happen!

Anyway, thanks a lot for your comments people! You're an amazing community!!

 

[virginiawoolf86]

Thanks, dear. Btw, of course I'll "be" with you as I promised. (Unless you leave after me). Still, I'm not sure if I'll ctb on 21st, though. My mind is doubting lots. I wonder what will happen!

Anyway, thanks a lot for your comments people! You're an amazing community!!

Take your time! It'll always be there whenever/if you want it. You're good people. The world needs more of that.

 

[Meditation guide]

Everyone here will miss you.
I know I will.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

It's clear that you've made such an impact here and we'll miss you!

I'm so sorry that life has brought you to a point where setting this date seems like a good thing.

In the meantime, stick around and let us entertain you

 

[Hopeindeath!]

You are a really nice member who says the kindest things to people. I just want you to know that you mattered in life.

 

[Marauder]

I wish you strong will and good luck. And keep in mind that it is not cowardice to reconsider and postpone it. I know what Im talking about because I already failed to CTB and missed two CTB dates. Even though I was really determined to do that and gave away lots of personal stuff and money I wasnt able to pull the trigger. It is extremely difficult to do the last step

 

[I want to end it]

are you still around OP? i saw you made a post today

 

[WornOutLife]

are you still around OP? i saw you made a post today

Oh yeah! I'm still around and quite recovered!
I always come here and read this thread and I get really surprised because things have changed so much!
I still have problems but I'm somehow dealing with them!

Thanks for worrying about me!

 

[I want to end it]

Oh yeah! I'm still around and quite recovered!
I always come here and read this thread and I get really surprised because things have changed so much!
I still have problems but I'm somehow dealing with them!

Thanks for worrying about me!

Ok. You think you still might ctb if things get bad?

 

[WornOutLife]

Ok. You think you still might ctb if things get bad?

Yes! I think so! I even wanted to ctb last weekend lol. My bipolar disorder makes things really hard.
I'm just trying to live for now and my family is quite happy. I hope I can keep this up.

 

[babybrie]

I always thought if I was going to ctb I would do it on the 21st as well. That number has been around me my whole life and honestly it freaked me out when I read your post and you said the same thing. Seriously tho hope you're ok

 

[WornOutLife]

I always thought if I was going to ctb I would do it on the 21st as well. That number has been around me my whole life and honestly it freaked me out when I read your post and you said the same thing. Seriously tho hope you're ok

Hi, dear! I'm okay, still here! haha
I'm surprised! I can't believe I've found someone who is also "haunted" by the number 21!
I see it all the time, it's ridiculous!!
I'm really skeptical but I bet this is some kind of sign!

 

[teyabutter]

Hello dear fellows of SS,

I wanted to tell you that I've finally talked to some people who can get me SN so I've decided to ctb on the 21 of January.
Why 21? Well, it's a number which keeps popping up all the time so I guess it's some kind of signal.

This might be sudden, I know, but I just can't endure life anymore. I'm having such an anxiety these days! It's hell!!!

Anyway, I'll post a goodbye thread on January, 21st.

Meanwhile, let's enjoy our time together. I'll try to help you as much as I can!

Hugs and love,

Matt


Edit: If I happen to fail, I'll end up in a psych ward forever and ever. I'm ready for it.

I know you've already left, but I hope that you have found peace and happiness in whatever may or may not exist after death