After months of debating back and forth with myself and my therapist, I've finally fully decided to do it. I told my mom because I didn't want her to be blindsided, and also because there's a piece of me that is still hoping for another viable solution, though I don't think it's likely. It hurts a lot. I'm fully aware of how deeply this will hurt my family and my girlfriend, and I know that this will likely lead to them doing the same out of grief, they've told me so. I need to put my own needs first this time. Logically, I can't find a reason to live or not live. Emotionally, this hurts like I've never hurt before, but it's also more relieving than ever before. I feel really bad, I'm causing so much pain, but it's my life, I've decided to end it, and that's what's best for me.
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