I've decided on a date, now I don't know what to do until then

[Jermsvader]

After months of debating back and forth with myself and my therapist, I've finally fully decided to do it. I told my mom because I didn't want her to be blindsided, and also because there's a piece of me that is still hoping for another viable solution, though I don't think it's likely. It hurts a lot. I'm fully aware of how deeply this will hurt my family and my girlfriend, and I know that this will likely lead to them doing the same out of grief, they've told me so. I need to put my own needs first this time. Logically, I can't find a reason to live or not live. Emotionally, this hurts like I've never hurt before, but it's also more relieving than ever before. I feel really bad, I'm causing so much pain, but it's my life, I've decided to end it, and that's what's best for me.

 

[Oneness]

I'm sorry you are going through this. Could you shed light on why you have decided to end your life?