It's so dumb

[korobka_s_konfetami]

I've been considering doing SN for who knows how long, my SN pack has been patiently waiting since forever. The thing is - I'm scared AF. I can't even get an antiemetic cause I can't get a prescription and I'm too broke to afford it. God I'm miserable. It feels like my fate is to be perpetually trapped in this Limbo I'm not able to get out of.

 

[Deleted member 31858]

Maybe an over-the-counter AE is better than nothing, you can check Stan's guide for other options that you may be able to purchase. On the other hand there have been farewell gilos where the ops are successful even without using an AE you could look for a thread.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly hate how it's so difficult and complicated to finally die in this world and I understand that it really can be so tiring feeling trapped here, as humans we deserve the option to just pass away in peace without struggle. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Rainork]

I've been considering doing SN for who knows how long, my SN pack has been patiently waiting since forever. The thing is - I'm scared AF. I can't even get an antiemetic cause I can't get a prescription and I'm too broke to afford it. God I'm miserable. It feels like my fate is to be perpetually trapped in this Limbo I'm not able to get out of.

I relate so much to feeling trapped and not being able to get yourself out of this life.
Being scared is quite natural and part of SI, it may also be a way of you telling yourself it's not your time- only you can know.
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way though, I often feel the stuck in limbo thing, often trying to figure out if this life is my hell that I'm forced to live in.
I hope you find peace soon, whatever that looks like for you.