Venting It's only came to me now.

[tanabatawish]

I'm not sure if this is appropriate to vent about, but I don't have a space else where. It has only come to be that for the longest time, I might have been a "victim" of emotional neglect. I don't know how to feel. It all makes sense once I truly thought about it. Now I feel dumb, but it probably does explain some of the "strange" behaviors of mine. I sometimes get that I'm way too apathetic towards people, especially when they are emotionally vulnerable but I guess that's projection on my part since I've been subjected to that treatment my entire life. It hurts. I can't report anyone, and I can't do anything. I'm basically powerless, not like it's my first rodeo but it sure does fucking hurt. Maybe they were right, I just need to "suck it up" Also it'd be wrong to report it to anyone, it had almost never gotten physical so there's no proof. Perhaps it's just something I have to accept as a part of my fuck ass "culture"
Grievous apologies for the incomplete sentences, I hope I tagged this correctly. I am not very familiar with using forums. Sorry.

 

[virgilwalks]

Was it in your family ?

 

[yowai]

At least you can understand yourself better now I guess. Some people fuck you up for life and are not even aware of it or care, you can't change what happened but now that you know the root of some of your problems maybe you'll find a way to work around it

 

[tanabatawish]

Was it in your family ?

Unfortunately. It's a bit cumbersome since it wasn't just one member of the family.