BridgeJumper
The Arsonist
- Apr 7, 2019
- 1,194
Ive been to the doctor today.
Violently sick throughout the visit.
She was very nice, asked me how long is this going on for, do I have tinnitus and how does it sound like. My vitals were 149 per 98 bp, pulse 134
Said she doesnt know about ears but the movement in my eyes is very worrying and that its not standard vertigo, and that I need to go to ER.
That theres something really wrong with my brain and that I need to be examined under anesthesia, and that it will cost 400 euro. Explained to me how to get coverage and prescribed something to suppres the spinnning. Its a different med than I was taking in Poland cause they dont sell it here. Something specifically for inner ear disorders.
I want to breakdown but Im too numb. Im scared stiff.
Whats the diagnosis? What do they predict? The worst? My grandma died of 4th stage cancer and they didnt tellhey didnt tell her either...
Im only 26! Before this started I was planning to recover!
I wonder if I broke the news to my family would they treat me well? Would they cut me some slack? There is a taboo about treating people badly when you know its seriious?
I wont tell them anyway, theyll be convinced its in my head till the very end. Dont want these cunts to intervene now.
I TOLD THEM I WAS ILL! AND NO, ITS NOT MENTAL ILLNESS!
!@#$%^&*()>><!! !
Violently sick throughout the visit.
She was very nice, asked me how long is this going on for, do I have tinnitus and how does it sound like. My vitals were 149 per 98 bp, pulse 134
Said she doesnt know about ears but the movement in my eyes is very worrying and that its not standard vertigo, and that I need to go to ER.
That theres something really wrong with my brain and that I need to be examined under anesthesia, and that it will cost 400 euro. Explained to me how to get coverage and prescribed something to suppres the spinnning. Its a different med than I was taking in Poland cause they dont sell it here. Something specifically for inner ear disorders.
I want to breakdown but Im too numb. Im scared stiff.
Whats the diagnosis? What do they predict? The worst? My grandma died of 4th stage cancer and they didnt tellhey didnt tell her either...
Im only 26! Before this started I was planning to recover!
I wonder if I broke the news to my family would they treat me well? Would they cut me some slack? There is a taboo about treating people badly when you know its seriious?
I wont tell them anyway, theyll be convinced its in my head till the very end. Dont want these cunts to intervene now.
I TOLD THEM I WAS ILL! AND NO, ITS NOT MENTAL ILLNESS!
!@#$%^&*()>><!! !
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