Celerity
shape without form, shade without colour
- Jan 24, 2021
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I don't want to go. I feel like this is the only place I am understood. At this point, I believe my suicide to be inevitable, but I have decided to push the date out as far as I can for the sake of my family.
I simply can't continue this pseudo double-life. I can't on the one hand make plans for my continued survival like my family expects me to all while consuming and producing all of these ideas about catching the bus.
I want to thank everyone on here who has been a support to me either directly or indirectly. Even just "me too" or "I've been there" replies sometimes meant the world to me, isolated as I am.
I will remain online for the next 48 hours or so. I hope the people that can recover do, and I wish you all peace in whatever your eventual decisions may be. Goodbye, guys!
I simply can't continue this pseudo double-life. I can't on the one hand make plans for my continued survival like my family expects me to all while consuming and producing all of these ideas about catching the bus.
I want to thank everyone on here who has been a support to me either directly or indirectly. Even just "me too" or "I've been there" replies sometimes meant the world to me, isolated as I am.
I will remain online for the next 48 hours or so. I hope the people that can recover do, and I wish you all peace in whatever your eventual decisions may be. Goodbye, guys!