It's been 24 hours

[BaconCheeseburger]

Yesterday, I stood at my friend's funeral, horrified by how her suicide impacted everyone around her, and I said to myself I'd never put anyone through that...

...24 hours later and I'm back to feeling that sometimes it's just for the best. It's not like I'm existing alive or dead anyway. Imaginary god(s), please bring an 'accident' to take me away please?

 

[shadow11]

Yesterday, I stood at my friend's funeral, horrified by how her suicide impacted everyone around her, and I said to myself I'd never put anyone through that...

...24 hours later and I'm back to feeling that sometimes it's just for the best. It's not like I'm existing alive or dead anyway. Imaginary god(s), please bring an 'accident' to take me away please?

I pray to be taken away every day

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

Yesterday, I stood at my friend's funeral, horrified by how her suicide impacted everyone around her

People move on, you know, five stages of grief and all that.
Personally I don't think that it's worth torturing yourself for years/decades just so someone else won't be sad for a bit.