serah
Student
- May 6, 2020
- 177
same thing as always. i come here to let things out. im just tired honestly, constantly exhausted. just mentally tired of doing this day after day everyday telling myself maybe i can change and maybe things will improve yet every day when i wake up its the same thing. its tiring when the only time im not doing too bad is when im with someone, yet at the same time im too much for anyone to handle. i want too much from people, and it makes me sick to think about it. im so jealous and possesive and i try to change my mindset yet i keep having these disgustingly obsessive thoughts over people. i hate it so much. if i like someone they consume me, i want to live just for them. i deserve to be alone. overall my life is going to shit and im just watching it get worse every year. i wonder how many more posts ill make complaining about my life before i finally just decide to ctb.
