It’ll get better

[TimeToPackUp]

I'm not going to lie. I'm exhausted, I have to come here because I can't tell anyone irl I'm suicidal because I'll be met with repetitive hope phrases and "you're not thinking straight" and "go see a shrink". Someone may even call me selfish, but I honestly wish there were someone in my life who understood I'm far beyond all of that and had an easy quick method for me. Would honestly make me happier than I've been in a long time. I have a method, while this method would guarantee instantaneous death, I'm afraid my SI will kick in because of the height. I've heard stories of other people jumping and I'm trying to build that same courage. If I do succeed I don't want them using my death as a reason to talk about mental health and shallow people posting the suicide hotline link and phone number everywhere. I guess it's inevitable, they'll talk about it for 5 minutes with sad faces and the fake "we're concerned" tone and everyone will return to being the terrible people they are. The suicide hotline aggravates me most of all, the most low effort solution to make you feel like you actually did something to help. Honestly, they'll say I wasn't thinking straight, but I think anyone trying to exit this world are the ONLY people thinking straight. I personally can't wait to get out of here and if they post the suicide hotline I'll come back to haunt them lmao

 

[yyytry]

The suicide hotline aggravates me most of all, the most low effort solution to make you feel like you actually did something to help.

Yup. When I call it, the aggravation of how stupid the conversation is, distracts temporarily from the urgency of calling in the first place.

It's totally a low effort, once size fits all kind of joke.

 

[TimeToPackUp]

Yup. When I call it, the aggravation of how stupid the conversation is, distracts temporarily from the urgency of calling in the first place.

It's totally a low effort, once size fits all kind of joke.

Yup. When I call it, the aggravation of how stupid the conversation is, distracts temporarily from the urgency of calling in the first place.

It's totally a low effort, once size fits all kind of joke.

This. Emphasis on the one size fits all approach. I also won't tell anyone because they'll think it's a "cry for help" from me. I wish people could get it through their thick skulls, I do not want to participate in life anymore. Suicide prevention is great for those it'll truly help, but I'm at an age and point in my life where I'm completely done. The only help I need is a safe, quick foolproof method, but I can't even have that. I get it though, aiding us is illegal because the fbi and politicians care so much about us. It's frustrating I have to do something wild just to ctb.

 

[miserabletires9]

In reality, you can't really.blame those suicide hotlines too much. First of all, I doubt they are paid at all. Second of all, even if it's a trained therapist, what exactly can they do?

I want to ctb because I will never have a nice relationship, and the last two guys I was with did me real dirty. Can they magically produce a man that I would love and he would love me? No.

Can they make me age in reverse so I can have time to have a family? No.

Can they make me suddenly prettier? NO.

They are doing the best they can.

 

[FuneralCry]

Those pro-lifers who invalidate people's suffering like that are so deluded and just lack compassion, I despise how we exist in a world where suicide isn't accepted as the valid option that it truly is, it's irrational to actually want to exist in this harmful world anyway where all that lies ahead for us is being tortured by old age. The people who say insensitive toxic positivity are those who aren't thinking straight instead, refusing to accept suicide as a perfectly logical option is the illness to me. But anyway I hope that you find the freedom that you search for, it repulses me how we are denied the option to just reliably exit this world in peace.

 

[SilentSadness]

You are right, the platitudes offered by pro-lifers serve only to annoy others. There is no empathy behind them either, only delusions and narcissism. I also agree that most people are terrible, abuse of others is all too common in this society. I wish the right to die was accepted, but instead suicidal people are neglected and persecuted.

 

[TimeToPackUp]

In reality, you can't really.blame those suicide hotlines too much. First of all, I doubt they are paid at all. Second of all, even if it's a trained therapist, what exactly can they do?

I want to ctb because I will never have a nice relationship, and the last two guys I was with did me real dirty. Can they magically produce a man that I would love and he would love me? No.

Can they make me age in reverse so I can have time to have a family? No.

Can they make me suddenly prettier? NO.

They are doing the best they

In reality, you can't really.blame those suicide hotlines too much. First of all, I doubt they are paid at all. Second of all, even if it's a trained therapist, what exactly can they do?

I want to ctb because I will never have a nice relationship, and the last two guys I was with did me real dirty. Can they magically produce a man that I would love and he would love me? No.

Can they make me age in reverse so I can have time to have a family? No.

Can they make me suddenly prettier? NO.

They are doing the best they can.

I don't necessarily mind the people on the other end, I've never called it myself but I've heard stories. It annoys me because it's so low effort and won't be effective at all for people who really want to ctb. Great for children who are having suicidal thoughts and might do something impulsive. Annoying for me when I really need a way out but every time I'm reading up on suicidal topics, that's being spammed, with no real solution to those who may have hope of changing. There's no galaxy where talking to someone or calling a suicide hotline would change my mind or make me feel better. Unless the goal was to find a way for me to peacefully exit.

Those pro-lifers who invalidate people's suffering like that are so deluded and just lack compassion, I despise how we exist in a world where suicide isn't accepted as the valid option that it truly is, it's irrational to actually want to exist in this harmful world anyway where all that lies ahead for us is being tortured by old age. The people who say insensitive toxic positivity are those who aren't thinking straight instead, refusing to accept suicide as a perfectly logical option is the illness to me. But anyway I hope that you find the freedom that you search for, it repulses me how we are denied the option to just reliably exit this world in peace.

Very well said. So much shit in this world going on right now. But let anyone mention they're suicidal and all of sudden they aren't thinking straight. This life is hell and a prison as far as I'm concerned

You are right, the platitudes offered by pro-lifers serve only to annoy others. There is no empathy behind them either, only delusions and narcissism. I also agree that most people are terrible, abuse of others is all too common in this society. I wish the right to die was accepted, but instead suicidal people are neglected and persecuted.

This. I see the abuse of others everyday, no second thought of what may be coursing through their heads, no empathy. Now if that person decided to harm themselves, all of sudden they're being ridiculous, or they arent thinking straight. Some bastards might even say they're being soft, truth is, people really don't care, especially if they aren't family. They just have to act like they care, what's the easiest, low effort way for me to pretend I care? Shove the suicide hotline in your face and tell you it'll get better, go about my day and not think twice of it anymore.